I've been on here for over 4 years now, and this will be my first journal.

I feel like my life is at a crossroads. I've been doing what I've done and known for a long time. I'm very good at it. But as the future looms down on me, I don't know if I can continue on the same paths. There are things I want, and things I don't want. People I feel I need to include in my life, and those I've let slip away. It's all a part of life, but something about it is very unsettling to me. Maybe it's the times that I'm the one who is left to slip away, that lack of control over my life is unnerving. Maybe it's nothing.

Either way, no matter the reasons, or if I make any decisions at all, the sun will still rise in the east, and I will go to work, and another day, another week, another year shall pass. Who will I be in the end? Will it even matter?